DooBlog

I’m still in Davao.  And I’m enjoying every minute that I’m with my family, my nephew … and just the palce.  Davao is my haven.  I’m praying that there’ll be opportunities for me here.  Looks like there are one or two.  But I don’t want to jump into any conclusions … hehe … Anyway, in just a few days I have to go back to Manila again …. haaay stressful Manila.  I wonder what waits for me there now? 

We’ll be going to Eden, Malagos and Eagle farm this next few days. M excited about it.  How I wish that I wouldn’t have to go back to my routines - bahay then work then bahay again.  Dito sarap puro rest, sobrang kain and play with my baby boy.  I’ll try to post some of his pics here para makita niyo kung gano ka cute ang pamangkin ko…manang-mana sa tita!

I’ve been lookin’ till my eyes are tired of lookin’
Listenin’ till my ears are numb from listenin’
Prayin’ till my knees are sore from kneelin’ on the bedroom floor
I know that you know that my heart is achin’
I’m running out of tears and my will is breakin’
I don’t think that I can carry the burden of it anymore
All of my hopes and my dreams and my best laid plans,
Are slowly slippin’ through my folded hands

So I’m gonna lay it down
I’m gonna learn to trust You now
What else can I do?
Cause everything I am depends on You
And if the sun don’t come back up
I know Your love will be enough
I’m gonna let it be, I’m gonna let it go,
I’m gonna lay it down.

I’ve been walkin’ through this world like I’m barely livin’
Buried in the doubt of this hole I’ve been diggin’
But You’re pullin’ me out
I’m finally breathin’ in the open air
This room may be dark but I’m finally seein’
There’s a new ray of hope, and now I’m believin’
That the PAST IS PAST, and the future’s beginning to look brighter now
Cause all of my hopes and my dreams and my best laid plans
Are safe and secure when I place them in Your hands

I’ll be going to Davao tomorrow!  I’m so excited and relieved because after a very complicated and tiring week I can finally have some rest. 

I’ll be going to Davao to ease my whole being.  To rest.  To pray.  To ask for wisdom.

I’ll be going to Davao to renew my physical strength.  To feed my spirit.  To find peace within.

Travelling changes a person. 

I’m 25 going 26 in a few days.  I’ve been caged for almost a decade now and I’ve realized that too late.  Too long have I waited, too long have I stayed in this cold box.  There is no one who can free me but myself.  Today I choose LIBERATION.

What are the consequences of this act? 

• Pain. 
• Fear of the unknown. 
• Search for direction.
• A temporary loss of focus.

Is it worth it?

still have to figure that out.  But I hope so.  I wanna believe so.

They say there is always a first time for everything.  This is my first bloggin’ ever.  It’s two in the morning and I’m still in my usual bored state of being.  Who would have thought that Doogie would take time to have something like this…I’m quite surprised myself!  Anyway, maybe this will be a form of release and relief - a form of therapy.  Wish me luck and may I get addicted to this.  =)